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Wow okay so I haven't posted a real update in ages. Time to remedy that. Haven't been up to much. Got into all three grad schools I applied to. Still haven't decided yet. Waiting to hear back from my boss back in HI. I have to make a decision by the end of this week. Thing is SJSU has the better program and it is my ultimate goal to get a job in CA so staying in the area would help with that, but after spending a year in CA doing nothing I have to admit that I'm kind of tired of the area. It's probably because I haven't really done much in SF. In SJ I'd have more people to call and go do stuff with. I am incredibly sick of cold rain though, OMFG.

Still I can't help but feel like I'd be happier going to UH, but that's only based on the two-three week trips I've been taking over the past couple years. And living with my parents for two-three weeks is vastly different from putting up with them full time. Plus 90% of the time I go back I get to hang with friends and most of them don't live in HI anymore.

Speaking of going back to HI, I'm heading home for just under two weeks tomorrow. My grandfather was asking about me a couple of weeks ago, so my mom checked out flight prices and found a trip back for me that was just over $300. Sweet. Happy to be going home again. Sad to be leaving my butthead cat, who in one of his more adorable moments has started lying on me to wake me up in the morning.

In other news, I'm kind of glad I stopped reading Newsweek years ago. Apparently they posted an article a week or so ago talking about how gay actors can't play straight (http://www.newsweek.com/id/236999). Thankfully, Kristin Chenoweth, my new hero, wrote a really well thought out reply (http://www.autostraddle.com/chenoweth-defends-gay-actors-44570/).

In less serious news, OH. MY. FUCKING. GOD. This past Saturday's Legend of the Seeker was AH-MAY-ZING! I'm so sad that this show is probably going to be canceled.



In addition to that, it's a great show with amazing actors, cinematography and fight choreography.
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So I've heard through the grapevine that my aunt is going to raise my rent because the family partnership actually has to charge her rent on her place in HI so that they don't end up with a buttload of taxes to pay. This all means that I need to save money until I can actually get a job, which can't happen until I come back from my trip in February. Saving money really isn't that hard, in theory, because I really only need to worry about food, gas and PG&E. Easy enough right?

Turns out not. While I was in HI, I got a couple of parking tickets because the people next door are asshats. One of them I can probably contest because the ticket has the wrong address. You can't possibly have to pay a ticket for an address that A) doesn't exist and B) if it did there wouldn't be a red zone in front of it, right? Maybe SF is fucked up and you can get a ticket for that. I don't know. And then yesterday Ashes McButtHead showed symptoms of a UTI. Basically he was in and out of the litter box every other minute. So I got to take him to the vet for an emergency visit. He's doing better today so that's good. The vet called though and said I should switch his diet. Boo for having to buy expensive prescription kitteh fudz.

That aside, the trip home for the holidays was really good. Got to hang out with a bunch of friends that I haven't seen in the past year or so, ate some awesome nomz, amazingly got through xmas without any family blowups, and spent some quality time with my parents (and kittehs and wrinkly, smush-faced dog). For the first time in a good long while it was really hard for me to come back.
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I loved my trip to Japan. I really did, and I'd go back in a heartbeat, but the thing is I really miss home. Okay, maybe not so much home home but more the food (and my cats!). I mean I've been craving butter garlic prawns for the past couple days, and yeah sure I can just hop up to SJ, go get some prawns and make fresh but really it's not the same (possibly because I don't use enough garlic and/or butter). And don't even get me started on Jimbo's tendon combo. HOLY FUCK I'VE BEEN CRAVING THAT FOR THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS (this is Jaimie's fault, though I was the one to expose her to the wonders that is Jimbo's, so maybe partially my fault too). And then there's the shave ice, because for some reason no one up here can get it right. It's not that hard, srsly. And POKE! Again, this is something I could make myself, but sashimi grade fish up here is ridiculously expensive (blah blah, excuses excuses) it's no $9.99/lb ($13.99/lb during peak times like New Year's), or at least it wasn't last time I checked, but that was a while ago so maybe it's changed. And dooooood I want to go back to Sushi Izakaya Gaku liek woah. The NOMZ.
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Despite me saying the people here are good people they are a vastly different type of people from my friends at Punahou and UCSC. These are not the people I would go out of my way to get to know. It's the little things. The other day we were talking about certain cell phones their propensity to collect fingerprints and dirt (i.e. the iPhone or LG shine). I mentioned that the LG shine would drive me nuts because you'd get fingerprints and scratches all over. One of the guys mentioned that I could use it like the guy does in the commercial, and someone else said, "but why would she want to check out girls?" Why indeed.

Not saying that I would if I had the phone because that's kind of sleezy, but my point is that my friends back in HI and SC wouldn't say that. I'm not sure if it's because they have better gaydars or are just more open minded or what. I know these people have only known me for about three weeks, but I get the feeling that even after three weeks at SC people kind of knew. Okay, maybe not (kind of ish) because I distinctly remember either Peter or Elliott, or both, saying that they saw me as either not interested in anyone at all or bi.

I don't know. I started this internship thinking that, yeah, it'd suck being away from people that I knew, but I'd meet some new people and network and have a good time. I honestly was optimistic about this. I knew I'd still be in the south, but Charlotte is supposed to be a pretty liberal city, and these are college kids, a demographic known for being liberal. I knew I'd have to keep my mouth shut about having a girlfriend, just in case (go North Carolina for having hate crime laws that don't cover hate crimes based on sexual orientation). I didn't expect about 4/5 of the interns here to be practicing Christians, meaning going to church on Sundays and bible study during the week type Christians. I didn't expect it to be so jarring to be a minority in more ways than one. I guess I've always been in areas where I was/my beliefs were in the majority or major minority. Here I am very clearly a minority in pretty much every aspect. It's an alienating experience.

I don't know if I should say people should come visit just to see how incredibly different it is here or to STAY THE FUCK AWAY.

I know it's hard to have fun when 50% of the time you're thinking, "get me the fuck out of here" and the other 50% you're just biding your time as best you can, but it really sucks here. I'm trying to stay positive and go out and do stuff with the other interns, benefit of the doubt and everything, but it doesn't always work. How can you really be happy when you have to watch what you say and do? When you have to hide who you really are to the point that it makes you uncomfortable in your own skin? I mean, if I don't hang out with these people there is NO ONE ELSE. I can't exactly be selective about who I want to hang out with, and it sucks. I don't have a car. I don't have a bike. There aren't any fucking buses running through the campus. It's a ten minute walk from the apartment to the closest edge of campus, doable, but not if I want to go shopping for anything (i.e. groceries).

There are also fucking fire ants everywhere outside! Gah! I haven't gotten bitten by an ant since fifth grade! And I get two bites in two weeks time! WTF!
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Random history thought:
I was actually thinking about this as I walked back to the apartment (after seeing a truck with the Confederate flag as its front license plate, parked in a handicap stall, making me very glad that whoever drives that truck is fucked up, harsh but true) and wishing I remembered my American history better. In certain ways this country would be a better place if the South had remained seceded from the Union. We wouldn't have the asshole president that we do now for one. But like I said, I don't remember all the issues and reasons behind the Civil War (aside from the big one, slavery). It's just a thought.

Side notes:
-Oh dude, I totally bombed my OS final, like woah. 34/75 with class avg of 54. Fuck... I'm surprised that I didn't get an F in that class.
-Also, burn marks are finally going away. Yay, no scars!

ETA
After ranting to my parents on the phone (for almost an hour!) I feel a little bit better. They totally understand how I feel and sympathize. They made snarky comments and confirmed that the south is a fucked up place. They said to try and think about it as an "eye opening"/cultural experience. Or at least to put that down on paper when asked about it. They also pointed something the obvious, the internship people stuck me here because they're not supposed to judge based on ethnicity/location. Although, now that I think about it, I'm pretty sure ethnicity came into play because the internship is for "underrepresented groups". But they definitely wouldn't have thought about the whole liberal Californian thing.
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So my slippers broke yesterday as I left Becky's house. I figured it'd be no big deal since I have another pair at my place that my father gave me. The unfortunate thing is that since I got them from my dad, they're Scott's. Typically that wouldn't be a problem and, in fact, would be a good thing because Scott's are better than the $1.99 slippers I get from Longs in Hawaii. However, the Scott's are heavier, and I don't know if it's just the way it fits on my foot or if my foot has gotten used to the lightness of my Local's, but these hurt the top of my feet when I walk. The straps dig into my foot and it's just uncomfortable as all hell. Which means I have to go to Longs and buy some overpriced mainland "flip-flops". BOO! Does not like.

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